Let's see if I can get anything to flow out of my boggled head. I am ever so exhausted from today, my heart is heavy as usual, but I am still fluttering. I wish I could just drive my car all night to who knows where, blare my music and melt into the seat. All I have wanted to do lately is melt, melt away into nothingness, and watch from the inside. I am tired lately, I feel too much for too little of an outcome. I want to love effortlessly without any hesitation, and for some people it isn't like that. I want to melt, so badly. I want to mesh into something that isn't myself, someone else. Bubblegum!
This is shit, I am sorry.
Twenty more minutes of this, then I am going to go to bed.
My period key isn't working, unless I jam on it really hard.
Tom Waits, heal my soul.
heart goes blood flows, flows deep into my veins and pumps through my body through my arms and tingles the tips of my fingers it circles back rushes deep into my cheeks, floods my face with warmth. this warmth is what I crave, warmth is what I lack. living in a body that has a constant chill is unappealing.
FUCKKK, how can I do this when I am not angry or too upset. I just don't understand it, I tried and I am sorry for failing. :[
