Restlessness is all that consumes me as of late. College is truly an experience, and to think I am not even in a UC yet. Yikes. I haven't been too keen on writing since my new scheduling has taken tolls on my life. My sleeping patterns are better, in a sense. I am actually tired in the night, but I am plagued with fatigue and low blood sugar throughout my day, which is no fun fair. I am enjoying my courses, but am lacking in math, which I shouldn't be. I guess I am getting used to managing m time and checking the due dates regularly. It is hard not having a teacher cram what is due down your throat everyday. I have to do it myself, and that is a task in of itself. I got a B on my first philosophy paper, I am still disappointed in my writing, but it will progress. After all I do want to be an English major. With my new college experience I can say I have gained many new friends, which makes me happy and sad all at the same time. Happy because it was a small change, which is what I have been looking for, although I would like something more grand. Sad, because I have get to spend enough quality time with my best friends which pushes me away from them. I am not one who is fond of playing catch up. I really don't enjoy playing cat and mouse when contacting my friends either. The friends I have gathered at school are more so the quick fix I needed and a few of them live not to far from where I am now. That is another factor that contributes to the sadness of not seeing my friends, they live a little to far away for daily or even bi-weekly visits. It is quite disheartening. I haven't much to write, and I apologize, but then again since there isn't really a directed audience I take it back. Oh!, the weather is finally nice, well for the time being it is. The weather here in California is weird. It fluctuates far to much to really know when you will get the desired season. I hold tight, because I know it will always come. This really isn't turning out the way I would have hoped, but doesn't it always? I am still going to post this nonsense, in hopes of coming upon it later in life and laughing at myself.
Be still my heart.
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